The Peace in My Heart~

I am feeling better today after a peaceful and restful weekend. My mother is feeling better so I was much relieved to see her moving around and doing things on her own. I am realizing a problem that I am not used to this feeling of peace, as life has been an up struggle hill for a very long time, so it was alien, weird, weird in a good way…but weird nevertheless to feel at peace. And making ur heart re-learn the way to be grateful again for the simple blessings. Considering the way life has been, it has been hard to trust happiness, as the moment you begin to trust, masks come off, hero becomes the ogre, silver linings end up electrocuting you and what not. So I hope that you might understand, if not relate, and forgive me for getting paranoid and psyched even when I was feeling at peace. I ended up looking behind my shoulder for the dagger, asking myself what’s the catch. And I ended up loathing myself for doing that. But after all is said and done, it was a good day and I have said my prayers of thanks to the grand master up there…….